States

Every minute, every hour, every day, every week and every single second of "now" is evolving. And each one of the moment respectively is demanding something out of us. The physical plane of existence has an evolving set of demands from us, just like so, our inner system has an evolving thirst too. When our mind gets tired of rationality and materialistic race, it yearns for intellectual drift. Our mind quenches it by seeking intellectual wisdom in places and areas never explored before. We go digging into the avenues of reading, writing, painting, talking and thinking on lines and ideas which we had never dared before. Or which may have seemed totally mundane earlier. 

But then, our inner thirst evolves. And we're taken to another level. Not higher or lower than the previous, just simply described and felt as another level. Here, the thirst is for something for passionate never ending and aggressive momentum of work. Our mind switches gears and churns into a production machine of eternal ideas. Non-stop ideas. Our mind aggressively starts searching. This time yearning for producing for outer plane of existence. This time, demanding physical results, expecting material outcomes. It such a case, judging the behaviour as animal search for material growth will be unfair. this very state, this state here is nothing but another level of thirst for thinking. So what if its thinking on a different level. 

Some people switch between these two states at long periods of interval. So long is one phase that it often stretches over one's whole youth or almost all life. Thus, we see some people totally engrossed in quenching their thirst for growth, for material outcomes, trying to compete with their own brain, trying to complement the rate at which their own mind is producing ideas and generating thoughts. 

Then, we see some people who are totally engrossed in quenching their thirst for intellectual or inner growth. For internal outcomes. For outcomes not evident to the world. Trying to match their settled internal pace of anxiety yet calmness. Calmly yet painfully looking for answers. Seeking solutions to bigger internal questions of Life and Growth of their soul. 

And, well, then there are people who switch between two states at a rapid pace. They are looking for answers one day, one second, one moment and then, they are tirelessly engrossed in matching the pace of their own mind's idea generation the next day, the next second, the next moment. 

We all have in-built gear boxes which switches our gears between the two states. Some ignore the gears and let the one thirst rust and die out. Essentially, the success lies in swiftly manoeuvring the gears according to the quality of roads, bumps and internal thirsts. The kind, type and quality of roads trigger the inner mechanism of our cars to adjust the gear accordingly. In failure to switch the state, we end up failing ourselves to ourselves. We end up committing an act of injustice to ourselves.  We end up living an understated and undermined life of our own. 

When we switch gears according to our own inner thirst, or when Life handles us a bumpy road making us switch gears, it feels alien, alien for a while. Alien for sometime. But that feeling is accompanied by a complete faith and internal peace with Self. With that path tags along the Concrete Hope and Strength. 

However, similar to this feeling, is another alien feeling. An alien feeling created by us by deliberately ignoring the gear switch. Turbulence this time is not accompanied with Faith, because this turbulence has been created by our own unaligned state. In our resistance and denial to accept and acknowledge our own inner thirsts, we end up choosing highways and roads which we were never meant to. And the biggest indication of such roads is its smooth path. A smooth path yet disturbed ride, a path which suddenly seems alien. If the path around seems alien, if there is even a bit of lack of alignment with the internal thirst; that uneasy smile; that quiet period of unknown; then know well, it is all indicating that the car is not in the right gear for the moment.