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Monday, November 19, 2012

In Search of an Eternal Obsession



I liked crawling. I loved it. Until I learned how to walk. I loved walking. It gave me the sense of independence.

I liked apple juice. Until I discovered tea. I loved it. Until I sipped coffee. I fell in love. I become hooked to it. Till the time I gulped down wine. It gave me the indescribable high. I loved it. Till today. Today, I am craving for something better than wine. Something which can transcend me and elevate me above constant loves and obsessions.

Some sort of stubborn devoid always reappears. Cannabalizing my soul. Feeding the apparent body yet not satisfying the soul. A vacuum that makes me realize of my two needs within. a need of basic instinct which I share with animals. And a need which I can't describe. A thirst for eternal obsession I can't express.

Dwelling within, the need for sustainable satisfaction just grows. Every apparent bubble of satisfaction bursts after a while. Yet I fall. I fall every time to the deceptions of timely satisfactions. I fall for every incoming mirage in the hopes that this will last. That this will quench the thirst of my soul.

I hated and detested every mirage. Because I used to fall for it knowingly. Until now.

With every deception, with every fall after a temporary rise, I realize, I am moving toward the ultimate quench. Its like life is giving you an opportunity to know, to fall, to explore  all your options before meeting the Ultimate Obsession. Before Feeling the Eternal Addiction.

For I know for a fact, once I meet the Eternal Addiction, the deceptive mere small obsessions will just fall into their places of satisfying my apparent needs.

While my soul will be high on the Real Love and Satisfaction, I wouldn't mind meeting all the small mere obsessions and addictions.

While I'd be flying in the sky, I wouldn't mind crawling and walking once a while. For I would have tasted, lived and experienced the power of Ultimate Obsession.

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